Here’s another early memory story. Remember my birth posting? These are both examples of the intricacy of the human mind. Though the first was from a pre-verbal period and this one is from very early childhood, my conscious preserved the experiences and brought them to my attention.
My cousin Bobby, about six months older, once put a hot poker against my leg when I was still fairly helpless and he was able to be up and around and do mischief. I can’t remember the incident but again there is a way the awareness was revealed to me later. My Aunt Margaret, Dad’s cousin, came regularly to babysit us and let Mum and Dad have a ‘date’, go to the pictures. She was a great storyteller and one of the stories, the Giant who Reached for the Sun, used to disturb me a lot. The Giant’s downfall came when he put the sun in his pocket and it burned his leg. It was as if I could feel it! I had a very unpleasant sensation in my leg every time she told it. Only as an adult, perhaps in my thirties, I made the connection between my cousin’s action and the sensation which Aunt Margaret’s story gave me.
If you have any experiences like this, of remembering in non-verbal ways and later coming to understand the meaning of the sensations you experienced, share them with us. I must say, however, that if some of these memories are sexual you would be better to explore them with an experienced and professionally trained psychotherapist than to expose them in this forum. I can pray for you but can’t do an adequate job of helping you here.